more mind space

so in this little world that is my head i am struggling with what paul describes in romans the thing i want to do i don't do and i end up doing the very thing i don't want to do.

I am talking about my health and fitness or in every day lingo - the spare tyre that seems to have expanded to cover my whole body so that I am just one great big blob!

I was watching a video of me and baby yesterday and it was a baby moment. But as I was holding baby while having his first curls cut, all i could see was this double chin and very dowdy housewife (not at all a yummy mummy, which just happens to be on tv at the mo).

But I know this isn't good. I'm unhealthy and the last time I did consistent exercise was when I played volleyball waaaay baack when?? And what's worse i like exercise. I'm the aunty who plays with the kids, kicks the ball, runs around playing chase and soccer. I love sports, ball sports mostly. Yet I'm unable to do something about this! Why? Cos it's just not a part of my every day life anymore. That has to change.

So i think i wrote in a previous post that the LORD has intervened in my every day life knowing how hopeless I am and has made the way smooth for me to do SOMETHING to get started.

If i really get depressed over it I would do nothing. But I may not be doing all I can, but I am doing what I can. Thanks to the LORD. I have a punching back which I bashed early on. I start bellydancing on Tuesday (fun!). And this is only the beginning.

So I am trying not to worry about all the things that I am doing wrong, and working on the few things that i can do right now...until I am able to do more. Only through the LORD. My hope is in him, because I realise I can't do this at all by myself.