Send me Lord

Well....its my first time and ive decided im going to stay!!

It has indeed been a hectic weekend, very stocked up with 'stuff'.Mentally, physically, emotionally drained, and doesnt help with the lingering flu i have that just wont go away. I feel the need to balance my life out so my non-christian friends, my workmates and not so christian family members do not isolate me because I have a passion for God! I prayed yesterday that the Lord will show me what Im doing wrong or not so right that might tempt others to consider me conceited because i love spending time with him and with others that love him. I know i must balance my life out, otherwise i will leave the wrong impression of the God I serve on others as a God who isolates people, and doesnt share! That is soooooo not our God!

Our God loves to share his love with others, and I just happen to be stumbling past when he chose me to be one who demonstrates this love to the unloved, the irritating, the untrustworthy, the gossiper, the winger, the "never happy with anything", the stubborn, the arrogant, the self righteous, the rebellious teenager, the misunderstood,the unforgiving, the disobedient, the drugged, the alcoholic, the lonely, the low self esteemed.....I asked the Lord to "SEND ME" because I was these people, still am some but, I thank God im no longer where i used to be even though im not where im supposed to be!
And he has convicted me to start my work for his kingdom, and in this little group we have I became more willing than ever before. But I cant do this without balance.
My professional life, my family life, my relational life with my friends outside and inside of church, my church life . It is hard..but I trust God will guide me and keep me focused on doing all things for his glory and not my own. That i rely on him for strength and not Coke or a short black!
I pray that God will keep me from ever stealing his Glory even if its for a second, because I am nothing without him. So you wonder why i am so keen on reaching and loving all these people?because when i was that rebellious alcoholic misunderstood teenager, he came for me, loved me and gave me rest.