give me strength

feeling rather crappy actually! all weekend of wedding celebrations which was great, gatherings, no sleep and catching up with everyone...now its day light savings and struggling to get up little earlier than usual to get to work on time.Going to bed isnt a problem, its the getting up thats the problem!

Lord Give me strength, i could barely stay awake even as i am writing this entry!

Going well with my task of loving and being proactive at loving my mum, just being patient with her and being there for her because i know she needs me.This was confirmed at church, which was quite amazing, especially the bit about " tell your mum you love her, as it will set you free" the lord knows most of the time i just want to hug my mum and tell her God couldn't have picked a better mum for me, and that she did a good job, raising us all and feeding us with Gods word and Gods will for our lives even when we didin't listen.But she will do something or say something that will just put me right off.The sermon on sunday openned my eyes again to the fact that my battle is a spiritual battle not a battle with my mum, and i now realise that everytime the Lord prompts me to do somehting that will certainly make both of us grow closer and together I get sidetracked by the enemy and im back at square one. I will aspire to remind her every now and again of how much I love her even if she drives me up the wall and down again, because I am not perfect either and i have a mouth on me that is supposed to glorify God not do the opposite :p

The biggest thing i think the Lord is pushing me to teach my mum however is her punctuality! She is late everywhere my mum, and its beyond a joke now..i for one hated being early because it means i have to wait for everyone else to arrive, no matter where it is, church, work, social gatherings,family functions etc...etc..but in Gods eyes, thats being unfaithful and I have been convicted of this. My mum is yet to be free from this and so i must have patient, be gentle in dealing with her in this regard, and shut my mouth and just wait for her to be ready and get out the door.Its not so much the act of being late its the mindset of "its ok to be late" that needs to be removed. At one point we have all suffered from this rotten disease but slowly the Lord is removing it from us, because we cant ask him to "send us" and still find it ok to be late.

God gives us enough time to deal with everything, and its a matter of being wise enough to manage this time and its something my family have a hard time comprehending!

Its not cool to be late, nor is it cool to have the reputation of always being late!
Lord give me strength!