love moments

I was going to do a series of posts on God moments but the majority of them are painful memories and today i don't want to feel sad...so i've decided to write about my next favourite topic...LOVE.

TOP 5 LOVE moments...

1. when I was 16, I heard a worship song, which made me finally understand how much the LORD loved me. It hit me for the first time that the LORD not only forgave me for being a self-centered sinful little brat but he actually loved that same brat, died for that brat, and wanted me to forgive that brat. It was a new beginning for me, bringing truth to my world, and acceptance for who I really was.
2. at 17 when in a moment of madness...love made me waaay to brave...I wrote on a piece of paper why I liked a certain boy. All the other girls seemed to be taken by his looks and I wasn't. For me it was who he was...he made me laugh, he was quietly confident, he wasn't afraid to be different....I regretted writing that note for the next few years, but for him it was a highlight he never forgot.
3. at 21, almost 22...that same boy captured my heart...he came back into my life at 19 but neither of us were brave in love...until one day that boy was forced into action out of fear of losing me. We celebrate that day as our anniversary and 16 years later we are still together.
4. hillsong conference 2004, I went to that conference wondering what does the LORD want ME to do...I left that conference realising it had nothing to do with me....and it was just what does the LORD want FULLSTOP. I remember screaming out 'whatever you want LORD is fine with me' and I gave him permission to turn my world upside down.
5. seeing our baby boy via an ultrasound this week...wiggling around, touching his face. I was so relieved that he was alive and healthy. If ever anyone wants to see a miracle then look at an ultrasound of a tiny life growing in a tummy of another human being. I look at my tummy and still can't believe there is a little boy growing in there. It's mind blowing!!