Crisis : a learning curve?

With God..every day is a learning curve!

So much learnt yet so much more needs to be learnt!

the more he teaches me about himself the more i realise how crappy I am at being his daughter, his creation, his eyes and ears and hands...and funny enough, the more i know about these weaknesses the more i am encouraged that he has my destiny written on the palm of his hand and wont let me wander round too long in the wilderness because he wants me to get on with it...!

I am encouraged because he still knows me better than anyone else and Im all good!

Recently I have gone through some hard moments of betrayal,anger, and sadness...and like all humans I pointed the finger outwardly instead of inwardly...instead of saying "Lord what is wrong, what do i need to do,what do i need to change to prevent this from happening again..i instantly said Lord..." i hope they fall off the face of the earth" GOOOOOD CHRISTIAN :p

The Lord tested me with what i have always considered my worst fear..and i trembled and fell apart...but he didnt leave me there for long..he picked me up after my "ME" moment and reminded me of who my rock, refuge and fortress was.........HIM!!

Its through these moments of crisis that I got to see Gods face, feel his warmth and find confidence again.It turns out...my trust in him wasnt al that stable, my foundation wasnt all that solid and yes, i still havent surrendered over full control of my life to him.

So what now?? I have my moments of sadness...but hes already given me so much more in the space of 3 weeks that my moments are just that...moments!

One day...he will deliver me completely but for now...theres much i need to learn about my GOD and much much more i need to learn about myself in GOD!

"For he binds up the wounded and HEALS the brokenhearted" (thats in Psalms..cant remember the chapter :p)