babe...nothing to forgive.
I don't find it easy to share my feelings. I do try to be the provider...while keeping it "all together".
I now know that while I am capable, my strength needs to come from God. And my idea of HUSBAND needs to come from God.
And by Tali's confronting honesty and truth I have been kicked down paths I did not want to go. God has not taken me quickly from A to B. He has taken me down painful paths of realisation to learn some HUSBAND lessons. And Tali has been God's discerning accomplice all along!
There is a lesson - that when a wife trains a husband...it has to be done with love. Honest love. Sacrificial love. Non-judgemental love. Tali is getting better at this all the time.
So babe, while you may feel you have treated me cruel, and made it hard for me to share and care, it's mainly cause I just did not share! It's a family upbringing thing. I am still not good...but am getting better.
Please love me while I am crap. It's the only way I am going to get better.
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you are fast asleep and i'm reading your post and now all i want to do is hug you!
there is one thing i can never escape beloved...i will always love you.
(now if zella read this...she would tell us to get a room already!)
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