my birthday!!

it was my birthday last week on the 28th March. im now a walking and talking 28 year old...whooooo hooooooo!!!

this year was quite different, i didnt make a big fuss like i normally do, nor did i remember until my sister reminded me ever so kindly about me getting old etc..etc...
i went home and sat by myself...i mean by my self!!! yes, all those who know me fall over :p

i will always remember this birthday, because i spent every second of it with the Lord, i said to him in the morning "Lord it doesnt matter if anyone remembers my b-day, you remember and know its my birthday, thats all that matters..you created me and welcomed me into this world on this day, 28 years ago and you know everything about me, so its cool"

and i actually meant that..sure enough some of the most important people and perhaps the closest to me forgot my b-day but it didnt matter to me...i was sure of their love for me and so did not even think twice about it...its amazing when you make the Lord your Confidence! Nothing moves you...normally my brother forgetting my b-day would distress me much but I enjoyed celebrating God styles...rest, sit, be still and know that HE IS THE GREAT I AM!!

My frenz wanted to meet up for drinks (which is what we normaly do), but i chose instead to go to uni and go home to sit with the Lord, pray, give him thanks and praise and read his word.
i praised him for the days of my life that he already knows about, i thanked him for I am wonderfully and fearfully made, that he knew me before i was conceived and for designated the 28th of March1978 for my great welcoming into the world. I thanked him for smiling upon my life when i was born as if to say:

" my dear child, theres a big world out there, you will laugh, you will cry, you will hurt and be misunderstood, you will have your heart broken, you will go through heartbreaking loss, you will make frends and you will be betrayed, you will change, you will cry again, you will be discouraged, you will be disrespected, you will be disobedient, you will make wrong choices, you will be taken for granted and will take other for granted as well, you will give up on me but on the 28th March when you were born i celebrated, for I knew what I created and thats YOU...with all your fears, weaknesses and strengths, your doubts and worries, i still created you because on your 28th birthday i knew that you will sit and relfect on a life well lived and you will be reminded that throughout your life, there were changes and different tides, but I remained tha constant, steady hand that guided you back...for I have a plan for you duaghter, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future,then you will search for me with all your heart and you will find me"

I enjoyed every second of the Lords presence and i truly worshipped him for the many days past and yet to come.I look to the future at my life and know that if i cast my cares unto him, submit to his will and keep moving forward with eyes focused on Christ things can only get better...and I am truly encouraged!

My father in heaven knows me by name....what an awesome revelation that was!!!