hey world
looks like we are all recovering from a full on weekend! This morning I was so tired that in my head I was thinking of excuses not to get out of bed...but none of them seemed good enough to run by the LORD :)
My man was so cool this morning. He dropped me off and as he drove away I was overwhelmed with missing him and wanted to run after the car and hug him. Within half an hour I received a text from him, normally i turn my phone off straight away, but today I forgot. I went for a quick toilet break and read - i love you, stay awake. aaahhhh
The LORD is so cool, he must have known i desperately needed that.
I survived the day...but I am having to seriously battle my mind to stay faithful with working.
My hourly prayers at work go something like this....LORD, please give me strength to bring you glory...please help me to stay awake....please help me to understand and clear my mind so I can learn this...help me to be faithful to you LORD....help me to do my best and not settle for just ok...help me to last 3 months pleaasee!!!
a key to surviving is renewing my mind....this is NOT just a job but an opportunity to build relationships with others. I treat everyone as precious to the LORD because I have no idea who are his children and who are not that's a judgement call the LORD makes with each individual ever created. My job is just to love.
Help me to love my co-workers Lord. Help me to love Janelle Lord.
Thanks for keeping me awake today and giving me the boost I needed from my man. Thanks for speaking to us in class tonite. Please bless our 40 days gathering tomorrow nite. Help us all to speak truth in love to each other, to encourage each other, but mostly to hear you and listen to your plans for us. Guide our choices, LORD and bind us together with you at the centre. Love you, LORD. Thanks so much for taking care of me and my loved ones.
Monday, October 31, 2005
quick update on me connecting with the family
hey - I sent emails to my Mom AND my Dad today! How "connecting" am I..!
They both sent me emails, and whereas I would have just said "I gotta reply to them when I get a good time to sit down and write" I just sat down and wrote. The time was not perfect. But the Lord was saying "just do it". So I did.
Maybe soon I will surprise them with sending an email first!!
They both sent me emails, and whereas I would have just said "I gotta reply to them when I get a good time to sit down and write" I just sat down and wrote. The time was not perfect. But the Lord was saying "just do it". So I did.
Maybe soon I will surprise them with sending an email first!!
God opportunities
yes this relationship building thing is tiring but its great that the Lord has slowly put other first in our lives by re-assuring us that we are first in his...
Bringing Adelle over with her husband was one of those relationships I had to renew..and it was great!We didnt really go over the past but we moved on from it. It was good to see her and catch up with her man too. Deep down she still wishes to see my family united, and i have seen what i didnt see before.That is the differences between us.When youre younger you thnk you can keep everyone on the same wavelength and everyone should operate like you but Thank God, he changes all that! He moves us from inward focus to outward focus, and this time the Lord reminded me that she isnt like me, nor is she like my other cousins, nor is she like my brothers, but she is just another fruit in this cocktail of personalities he has put together in one family! It is my duty as a member of his family to accept it and cherish it.I realise that i missed her friendship and she missed mine! She is determined to see the Christchurch boys and was encouraging me to bring my brothers so we can all meet and catch up on all this lost time.She sees now in her other cousins what I saw in her before and realises how important it is to love others, reach out to others and remind them that they are loved. I have learnt that I have to accept that people change and its not always for the worse, that God uses change to teach me something, and I realised that I was extremely selfish before, lacked wisdom and had no divine insight in dealing with her.
One day i will call upon her and she will be there for me without fail and i Thank You Lord for opportunities you moved heaven and earth to create just so I can keep on loving, forgiving, accepting and renewing. Without you, all this would have been impossible!
Im glad that though my relationship with my cousin might not be the same as we were before, but you have created a new one where we can both build on!
Youre awesome Lord and I love You!
Bringing Adelle over with her husband was one of those relationships I had to renew..and it was great!We didnt really go over the past but we moved on from it. It was good to see her and catch up with her man too. Deep down she still wishes to see my family united, and i have seen what i didnt see before.That is the differences between us.When youre younger you thnk you can keep everyone on the same wavelength and everyone should operate like you but Thank God, he changes all that! He moves us from inward focus to outward focus, and this time the Lord reminded me that she isnt like me, nor is she like my other cousins, nor is she like my brothers, but she is just another fruit in this cocktail of personalities he has put together in one family! It is my duty as a member of his family to accept it and cherish it.I realise that i missed her friendship and she missed mine! She is determined to see the Christchurch boys and was encouraging me to bring my brothers so we can all meet and catch up on all this lost time.She sees now in her other cousins what I saw in her before and realises how important it is to love others, reach out to others and remind them that they are loved. I have learnt that I have to accept that people change and its not always for the worse, that God uses change to teach me something, and I realised that I was extremely selfish before, lacked wisdom and had no divine insight in dealing with her.
One day i will call upon her and she will be there for me without fail and i Thank You Lord for opportunities you moved heaven and earth to create just so I can keep on loving, forgiving, accepting and renewing. Without you, all this would have been impossible!
Im glad that though my relationship with my cousin might not be the same as we were before, but you have created a new one where we can both build on!
Youre awesome Lord and I love You!
me too...
Since we are blogging about our weekend and 'serving goals' - here's my update.
The weekend was great - but tiring. Previously I would normally slip away for a sleep...and not relate. Let Tali do all that kind of stuff. The new me - well it meant I had to hang around, mingle, mix - BUILD RELATIONSHIPS. This "building relationships" thing is tiring!
But worth it. I had a great time. My schedule was:
The weekend was great - but tiring. Previously I would normally slip away for a sleep...and not relate. Let Tali do all that kind of stuff. The new me - well it meant I had to hang around, mingle, mix - BUILD RELATIONSHIPS. This "building relationships" thing is tiring!
But worth it. I had a great time. My schedule was:
- Friday night "Pass The Plate" (up till after midnight with our street ministry of feeding people in the street)
- Saturday night - The wedding - went to bed about 4.30am
- Sunday night - post-wedding socialising and trying to upload wedding photos online - went to bed after midnight.
As for my 'serving goal' - I have been trying to spend time with Tali's mom...and indeed we have had time alone and just chatting - I know I have been putting in more of an effort that previously. And it's been great. It's incredible what an ATTITUDE change can do to make something easy...and make you want to keep on doing it. Renew your mind folks!
Thank You
Its nearly time to meet again and I think I'm doing well with my task, the Lord has helped me relies the voice I had been using and I am now able to have a conversation with Phil without using it.
The good thing about this is that its something I know I can continue to do even though I only had to be able to do it for this week. I thank the Lord for giving me the strength to be able to accomplish this.
Once again the Lord has been with us and I just thank him for his protection and the blessings he has given us.
The good thing about this is that its something I know I can continue to do even though I only had to be able to do it for this week. I thank the Lord for giving me the strength to be able to accomplish this.
Once again the Lord has been with us and I just thank him for his protection and the blessings he has given us.
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