If I could describe my life's mission it would be Isaiah 32 (NIV) and 61...will share 61 another time.
Isaiah 32:
In my Lord's kindgom, I want to be...
a shelter from the wind and a refuge from the storm,
like streams of water in the desert
and the shadow of a great rock in a thirsty land
then...
the eyes of those who see will no longer be closed,
and the ears of those who hear will listen.
the mind of the rash will know and understand,
and the stammering tongue will be fluent and clear...
it goes on to describe a fool - the opposite to the above, finishing with verse 8...
BUT a generous man devises generous things, And by his generosity he shall stand.
(that's the NKJV)
That's me.
Monday, March 06, 2006
Sunday, March 05, 2006
40 days study this tuesday
Hey everyone
My study for this week is more reflection than anything else. So here are some things to think about so we can discuss together:
My study for this week is more reflection than anything else. So here are some things to think about so we can discuss together:
- have we finished the purpose driven life book? Did you figure out what your NO. 1 purpose is? Are you serving in some way in all 5 purposes? (did ya notice how we had five purposes and there are five of us...that's God planning!). Have you completed your life statement, testimony, etc?
- Do we still want to continue to meet as a group, especially now everyone has a connect group? Or do we want to meet twice a month - on our fasting tues, and social event? Are there things we still have to do as a group eg: short term mission, prayer, serving?
RECAP 5 PURPOSES:
- to connect (relationships),
- grow (be like our Lord),
- serve (ministry, God and others),
- share (evangelism, missions),
- worship (God's pleasure, church attendance, worship tapes, personal health).
So think about it, pray about it, write about it...why don't we meet Lipo on Tues at the hospital, 7pm? lets not be late, cos visiting hours finish 8pm :)
I think for me the greatest thing the LORD has done is connect us as a group. He's given me an opportunity to build a personal relationship with you all where I feel safe enough to discuss anything. We have been a part of each others lives during a time when we all needed lots of prayer and support.
So much has happened to each of us during that time...personal lives turned upside down, work changes, relationships, major life decisions, trials galore! Imagine if we had to go thru all that on our own? Obviously, the LORD knew we would not cope on our own. But thankfully the LORD had a rescue plan for each of us - his perfect timing brought us together when we needed each other the most!
Thanks, LORD, for thinking of each of us when you formed our group and for your AWESOME perfect timing.
WHAT GOD HAS USED TO GET MY ATTENTION
Well, well, well. If this is what God has to go through just to get someones full attention then its a bit of a worry. Not because He is trying to scare people but He knows and feels for them that sometimes He has to hit them a little bit harder for there attention.
Yes, Im talking about myself here and yes Im writing this from hospital, not because Im here for a visit but Im here because I've been hit with something that I have no idea where it came from or even what it is. BUT its taught me something.
Just by being here, I've started to realise a few things.
This year, God has taken away a few things from me so that He could get my attention but by saying that, these things didint really affect or bother me in a way.
But God is not stupid, He knows what I take pride in, Its my heath and my strength. These are the two things that if its taken away then I will definitely have nothing.
SOOooo... Whats has happen now.???
It could've been worse or something worse and bigger than this but the main thing is, I heard Him and I know what He wants.
This is a learning experience for me, that I have to listen and hear Him when He's trying to talk to me and that I should not take things for granted as I normally do..
Because if I dont listen or trying to ignore what He wants of me then I should know what Im getting myself in..
For more news,
I've been in hosptal for about three(3) days now and its looks like its going to be another three(3) to a week days to go. I ask to please remember me in your prayers.. God Bless.
Yes, Im talking about myself here and yes Im writing this from hospital, not because Im here for a visit but Im here because I've been hit with something that I have no idea where it came from or even what it is. BUT its taught me something.
Just by being here, I've started to realise a few things.
This year, God has taken away a few things from me so that He could get my attention but by saying that, these things didint really affect or bother me in a way.
But God is not stupid, He knows what I take pride in, Its my heath and my strength. These are the two things that if its taken away then I will definitely have nothing.
SOOooo... Whats has happen now.???
It could've been worse or something worse and bigger than this but the main thing is, I heard Him and I know what He wants.
This is a learning experience for me, that I have to listen and hear Him when He's trying to talk to me and that I should not take things for granted as I normally do..
Because if I dont listen or trying to ignore what He wants of me then I should know what Im getting myself in..
For more news,
I've been in hosptal for about three(3) days now and its looks like its going to be another three(3) to a week days to go. I ask to please remember me in your prayers.. God Bless.
Thursday, March 02, 2006
ephesians 4
Unity in the body of Christ
As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to one hope when you were called— one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.
But to each one of us grace has been given as Christ apportioned it. This is why it says:
"When he ascended on high,
he led captives in his train
and gave gifts to men."
(What does "he ascended" mean except that he also descended to the lower, earthly regions? He who descended is the very one who ascended higher than all the heavens, in order to fill the whole universe.) It was he who gave some to be apostles, some to be prophets, some to be evangelists, and some to be pastors and teachers, to prepare God's people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.
Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of men in their deceitful scheming. Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head, that is, Christ. From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.
Living as Children of Light
So I tell you this, and insist on it in the Lord, that you must no longer live as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their thinking. They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them due to the hardening of their hearts. Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, with a continual lust for more.
You, however, did not come to know Christ that way. Surely you heard of him and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.
Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body. "In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold. He who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with his own hands, that he may have something to share with those in need.
Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.
If I focus on what other people expect of me, what they think or feel about me, then I can't be my Father's daughter. If I go into battle thinking I can save someone or set them free, than I'm going to lose. If I focus on my own hurt, justifying who i am and why i do what i do, then I make it about me...it's not about me...it's about my Saviour who set the world free.
It's clear what the LORD wants me to do: to pursue peace, to keep the unity of his body, to speak the truth in love, to be kind and compassionate, to forgive, to remember who he made me to be. To not grieve the Holy Spirit. All of this in humbleness remembering just how much he has forgiven me for.
As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to one hope when you were called— one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.
But to each one of us grace has been given as Christ apportioned it. This is why it says:
"When he ascended on high,
he led captives in his train
and gave gifts to men."
(What does "he ascended" mean except that he also descended to the lower, earthly regions? He who descended is the very one who ascended higher than all the heavens, in order to fill the whole universe.) It was he who gave some to be apostles, some to be prophets, some to be evangelists, and some to be pastors and teachers, to prepare God's people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.
Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of men in their deceitful scheming. Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head, that is, Christ. From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.
Living as Children of Light
So I tell you this, and insist on it in the Lord, that you must no longer live as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their thinking. They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them due to the hardening of their hearts. Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, with a continual lust for more.
You, however, did not come to know Christ that way. Surely you heard of him and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.
Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body. "In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold. He who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with his own hands, that he may have something to share with those in need.
Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.
If I focus on what other people expect of me, what they think or feel about me, then I can't be my Father's daughter. If I go into battle thinking I can save someone or set them free, than I'm going to lose. If I focus on my own hurt, justifying who i am and why i do what i do, then I make it about me...it's not about me...it's about my Saviour who set the world free.
It's clear what the LORD wants me to do: to pursue peace, to keep the unity of his body, to speak the truth in love, to be kind and compassionate, to forgive, to remember who he made me to be. To not grieve the Holy Spirit. All of this in humbleness remembering just how much he has forgiven me for.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
like the waves that go back and forth
so i am feeling with all that is going on...!!!
its been 7 weeks now i think and still my mum refuses to talk to me since i moved out.It is a great barrier in moving on and a big ugly heavy black cloud hovering over my head.It saddens me coz i feel like im an outcast and i have been living with a fake family all this time.That i dont belong anywhere near my family coz im so strange and wonder if this is why the Lord made me so independent, and teaching me at such a young age how to soar alone.
My dad was supposed to call me back to tell me when i can go visit them and sort things out with my mum but still no answer. I cant seem to push past it and breakthrough coz i know i like things sorted, not just brushed under the carpet and live life in a facade.
ironically i hate having to be the one to confront issues like this and so i needed all the Lords strength and peace to make that call.
Work is extremely high pressure, and im feeling it which is very unusual for me....and to think i only took it coz i wanted to help some one out who was in desperate need of love and laughter.Now i barely have time to converse with her!!
I miss my sister and my heart cries for her company everyday. I miss going home to my parents house,and just be around their noise and dramas.
My man is surprisingly so needy and the sounding board for all my stresses.On a normal day it would be lovely to have your man "need"to just be around you even if your not talking but with everything else going on, it feels like suffocation to me and so i reject him and at times snap at him for nothing, which normally ends in an argument.
Ive got connect which i need to spend extra time preparing because of our study program and the fact that i cant seemt o make time to see all the girls individually so i get to see how they really are.
Yet, in the bottom of it all thertes a little voice reminding me again of who I believe in and who I seek validation from, and what he needs me to do!!!
I know Satan is working hard and getting me to believe that my mum was right about me, that I am everything she says I am and therefore i wont prosper in any plans i have.
and most of all the haunting words of my mother follow me everywhere " it is not gods will to move out and that all this crap is following me coz im disobedient"
i feel like just leaving the country and run off somewhere and start all over...but that is precisely whats making me feel like the waves that James speak off....that go back and forth achieving nothing!!
I come to the Lord yet my body is weak, but my spirit soars and wants me to focus on the Lord the creator of heaven and earth, from whom my help comes from....but really i just want to give it up and switch my mind off so i dont care anymore.....but how can i when i know what i know and i am accountable for so much...for where can i go to hide from God? not the heavens coz hes there, not the depths of the earth coz he is also there, not the east or the west...
Where can i go to hide from your presence Lord?? Even in the darkness of my mind your light shines so brightly covering any doubt and lies that lay there..because of your love for me you give me a truth to doubt the doubts Satan puts in my heart....
Lord im trusting in you, im trusting in your faithfulness to me, im trusting in your deliverance of my family and the restoration of broken relationships! i can only trust Lord, trust and obey!!!
"Why are you so downcast oh my Soul, trust in the Lord for I am yet to praise him"
its been 7 weeks now i think and still my mum refuses to talk to me since i moved out.It is a great barrier in moving on and a big ugly heavy black cloud hovering over my head.It saddens me coz i feel like im an outcast and i have been living with a fake family all this time.That i dont belong anywhere near my family coz im so strange and wonder if this is why the Lord made me so independent, and teaching me at such a young age how to soar alone.
My dad was supposed to call me back to tell me when i can go visit them and sort things out with my mum but still no answer. I cant seem to push past it and breakthrough coz i know i like things sorted, not just brushed under the carpet and live life in a facade.
ironically i hate having to be the one to confront issues like this and so i needed all the Lords strength and peace to make that call.
Work is extremely high pressure, and im feeling it which is very unusual for me....and to think i only took it coz i wanted to help some one out who was in desperate need of love and laughter.Now i barely have time to converse with her!!
I miss my sister and my heart cries for her company everyday. I miss going home to my parents house,and just be around their noise and dramas.
My man is surprisingly so needy and the sounding board for all my stresses.On a normal day it would be lovely to have your man "need"to just be around you even if your not talking but with everything else going on, it feels like suffocation to me and so i reject him and at times snap at him for nothing, which normally ends in an argument.
Ive got connect which i need to spend extra time preparing because of our study program and the fact that i cant seemt o make time to see all the girls individually so i get to see how they really are.
Yet, in the bottom of it all thertes a little voice reminding me again of who I believe in and who I seek validation from, and what he needs me to do!!!
I know Satan is working hard and getting me to believe that my mum was right about me, that I am everything she says I am and therefore i wont prosper in any plans i have.
and most of all the haunting words of my mother follow me everywhere " it is not gods will to move out and that all this crap is following me coz im disobedient"
i feel like just leaving the country and run off somewhere and start all over...but that is precisely whats making me feel like the waves that James speak off....that go back and forth achieving nothing!!
I come to the Lord yet my body is weak, but my spirit soars and wants me to focus on the Lord the creator of heaven and earth, from whom my help comes from....but really i just want to give it up and switch my mind off so i dont care anymore.....but how can i when i know what i know and i am accountable for so much...for where can i go to hide from God? not the heavens coz hes there, not the depths of the earth coz he is also there, not the east or the west...
Where can i go to hide from your presence Lord?? Even in the darkness of my mind your light shines so brightly covering any doubt and lies that lay there..because of your love for me you give me a truth to doubt the doubts Satan puts in my heart....
Lord im trusting in you, im trusting in your faithfulness to me, im trusting in your deliverance of my family and the restoration of broken relationships! i can only trust Lord, trust and obey!!!
"Why are you so downcast oh my Soul, trust in the Lord for I am yet to praise him"
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