I am all shopped out!!! I went shopping on Sat, still looking for 3 items of furniture for my new home, plus curtains, etc. I was shopping 3 hrs and went to this huge mall. We're not familiar with it, so walked around and around searching for a couple of shops. Even my man who is usually good with directions found the signage very difficult to follow.
As I was walking around I could feel my body wasn't coping, legs were aching and I was overheating. I could see Myles getting further ahead of me and didn't have the energy to even speak. So I kept walking and walking. When I caught up to myles - I had to sit down, but I was so exhausted and overwhelmed with how I was feeling physically, I couldn't tell him how I was feeling. So he knew something was wrong, made the decision and sat us down.
In my head I kept thinking, I can't cope, this is too much, I should be doing less, simplifying my life, not doing shopping marathons. I just wanted to breakdown and ball my eyes out, but this mall was super packed with people and the seat we were on had several other people sitting there.
So I decided Sunday would be my last day shopping, even if we found nothing. It would just have to wait till after baby. I asked the LORD to help us find what we needed on Sunday after church because I was soooo done with shopping.And on Sunday we found everything we needed. One of the things was out of stock but at least I knew what I wanted now, and myles could go pick it up when they restocked. I didn't have to go again.
Why am I sharing this?? Because I have never felt so overwhelmed and unable to help myself like that. I couldn't even talk. With caleb I made a point of relaxing and staying home because it was my 1st child. But Gobbie has had it hard.
It made me realise that I was stressing myself out with the long list of things to do. Instead of focusing on the one thing I need to do most. Look after myself for Gobbie's sake and mine. I can't afford to have my blood pressure rise this month. I have 4 weeks left and I need to spend these wisely.
So no more marathon shopping days. One task a day and nothing overwhelming. What are those three magic words the LORD gave me??? simplify, balance and accept. Need to write these on my heart.
3 comments:
Amen Tali!
I will pray for your strength in these final weeks and that the Lord would bless you with an easy and short labor!
My sister is 2 cm dilated and has been having contractions on and off. This is news from my other sister Joy yesterday.
So....she could go any time it looks like!
I probably won't be able to get up to see the baby (they live about 1 hour north of us) until I am through with work. 17 more days of school!!!!!
That's great Faith. I pray she has an easy labour too! May have already happened!
Had a bit of a scare today - my blood pressure was high, so stayed in hospital for monitoring and it was fine. They're being extra careful because I'm trying to have a natural pregnancy this time around. Caleb was an emergency caesarean.
Thanks a lot for the prayers.
Still praying for you!
My sister STILL hasn't had baby. She is now 4 days overdue.
Will keep ya posted!
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