pregnancy loneliness

when i feel helpless I feel lonely
why is that??
I literally can't help myself...i have to ask for help for big things and little things.
I can't complete things on my own...I need help to accomplish even small things.

This last month I have felt frustrated at my inability to cope.
I can't even stretch away my aches and pains.
Someone else has to massage me.
I can't enjoy my son falling asleep on my arm...it hurts too much.

Why does this make me feel so lonely??? because I'm alone.
No one else can carry my child.
I could barely walk 2 days ago...but I went out anyway.
I looked ridiculous.

I am worried for my baby.
I want to try a natural birth.
Having had a caesarian, if things go wrong I might lose my child.
It's a small chance, but still it's a risk.
I'm scared and have been praying I make the right decision.

I feel alone because I'm so dependent on others.
I hate being so needy.
But that's just how it's meant to be.
I only have to survive a little while longer.

Then I will hold my baby.
See the life that has been growing in me.
The aches and pains will not compare.
And every day I spend with her will be a blessing.