ivf

we've started ivf again....taking nightly injections to help with ovulation. Myles is hoping for twin girls...who will of course be spoilt rotten by him :-) I'm just hoping for a sibling for caleb so he will have someone to play with.

i have been watching programmes of multiple births and huge families...hopefully it's not the LORD'S way of preparing me for more children then i planned :-)


I have so many plans but it's the LORD who directs my steps. I still have it in my heart to do short term missions to Africa. But for now my life is about building our little family. I just don't want to be one of those people who say they want to help but it will have to wait till my children are a little older....then it becomes it will have to wait till my children finish college...and then they are too old to go anywhere :-(

Kind of like the guy who wanted to follow Jesus but he wanted to go home and bury his Father first...this is not a small thing, it's a responsibility that you would think the Lord would have made allowances for...but it showed the tremendous cost of following the Lord...everything and everyone has to come 2nd.

But let me clarify this...i don't think it meant put ministry or service before your family. Because the LORD expects us to take care of those he puts in our hands. The key is: IT HAS TO COME FROM HIM...not from your own desires or people pressure....but the call to serve and sacrifice has to come from him. Plus once someone is dead it's too late to save them, and if they were saved then they're dancing in heaven already. Whereas the living still need to meet their Saviour thru us.

I am happy for the LORD to direct me because I'm responsible for Caleb. I don't know what's around the corner but I know the One who does. Who am I to second guess him??