fatherless family

i met up with two of my cousins tonight plus kids, hubbies, etc. we were talking about our Dads. In my family, which is my mother's family, there were 14 siblings but in the last 4 years we have lost fathers. It began with my Dad and then 3 of my uncles within 2 and 1/2 years.

Out of my Mum's 14 siblings, 2 brothers out of 6 remain and 6 out of 8 sisters. My Mum lost two siblings in 1989 within a month of each other. And her 3 brothers within 2 years. Even my cousins that have lost their mothers have also lost their fathers. We are a fatherless generation.

Why am I recounting all of this? I think it's because my cousin tonight was talking as if two more of my aunties are near the end of their lives. We are losing a whole generation. It's very sad because most of them died young. Only 1 out of the 6 was over 60.

My Dad was 58 turning 59 when he went to be with the LORD. It's been 4 years but I still have moments when I am reminded of my Dad and I ball my eyes out. I still wish he was here. When I talk with the LORD I know he had a plan for taking my Dad but if I could change anything in my life it would be losing my Dad.

My cousin tonight was super close to her Dad. Her Dad was the most recent so it's still very fresh to her but it feels like he's been gone for ages. I think she's still mourning. And only time can lessen it but it will never go away.

It's like me. My Dad was larger than life. He was never sick, and he was so young at heart. He would play and play. He was like a big kid and like me I think he enjoyed hanging with kids more than grown-ups because they are all about enjoying life.

There will always be something missing in my life without my Dad's smiling, chuckling face.