dealing with my strengths

So I wonder how one overcomes weaknesses that stem from your strengths??? For me it's letting go of things, moving on and leaving it in the LORD's hands, surrender or cast it and get on with what you can do until the LORD gives you the strength to do what you can't. Stand on his grace because we definitely don't deserve God's forgiveness but he gives it to us freely through Jesus.

It's not easy and I know if something is on my mind too much then I'm out of balance and I need to get rid of it. Even if it means giving up. And it means accepting that people are not like me.

I have a couple of people in my life who are forever back-stabbing me. I wish I could say they are not close to me, but they are. A long time ago I decided thats just the way they are. They need to tell other people to get it off their chest because they're not comfortable telling me. Probably because they know I will tell it like it is and try to resolve it, but sometimes they're just not ready to stop being angry or upset with me. When they do, they no longer need to tell me.

I have always tried to be a blessing in their lives even when they don't recognise it or know about it. If I do something good they will give Myles the credit because it can't possibly be me. Little do they know that sometimes I have had to struggle with Myles to be generous to them.

Yet...I love them. I can't hold anything against them, I will be heart-broken by them but I know that talking to them about it, just makes them feel bad and they will hold this against me too. I can't win. So I let go and go on.

The hard thing is I know I will never trust them because they've made it obvious that I can't. But I accept that this is the way they love me. They're not like me. In fact sometimes I wonder if they like me at all :-)

So I accept.