When it pours HE reigns!!

I havent been on this for soooooooooo long i actually forgot my password and forgot how to create a post!!!! :p:p

Its been a drought for so long where i am, spiritually i mean, actually i think it was more financialy than spiritually. WOW...what a journey but i made it...from leaving work, to being without work for 6 months, to not goin to church, to not having my connect group anymore, to totally not goin to church or even speaking to anyone from church, to nights alone cryin on my bed, to more nights and days of cryin on my bed, to asking for help, to cryin again, and again..to THIS!!!!!

There were times when i wanted to put on my wings (the ones the lord tookaway when he planted my roots and showed me what committments were) and just.....FLY AWAY!! leave it all behind and just go....but i couldnt, i wouldnt, and i didnt...he taught me too much to give up!

what a battle its been....if i could only tell you all about it..but i start work tomorrow, a role that i know nothing about but wanted to do, after so many rejections and knockbacks, i got it!

and perhaps ill get to share my story again when i visit...but ill leave with one verse that was always on my mind " do not be afraid, be strong and courageous for I am the Lord your God and I will NEVER leave you nor FORSAKE you"

When you are unemployed, have no money, and living off the bare minimum, you tend to get easily discouraged, feel rejected by God and even go through the pain of feeling like hes punishing you for your past sins (the ones he said hes forgiven you for and remembers them no more??) yeah those ones...you cut off ties with frenz and even loose the courage to face family..next thing you know youre in a world of your own..for me it wad Planet Zella, Population 1......i wont say DONT do that coz its gonna happen and youre gonna feel like youre worth nothing, you will swallow your pride and ask for help and then feel ashamed for it everytime you see those people that helped you...yes!! Satan did dome to steal, kill and destroy, but our Lord said "whomever the son sets free is FREE indeed"

and a looooong time ago i received my conviction for freedom...and with it came the HOPE that never failed me..not once...!
so i cried at night but in the morning i was ready to battle it out again...the lord disciplined me big time...but he did not forsake me!

when it POURED on me and i was drowning....HE REIGNED over all my circumstances and filled me with hope day after day...when i trusted he directed my every step...when i doubted his love he remined me of the first time i realised it...when i cried he gave me every reason to cheer up...when i felt like giving up he quickened my spirit to remember who I was!!

for the struggling unemployed person out there....remember what the Lord has taught you in your journey, never give up the hope you found,never forget his plans for you and he will come to your rescue...just like he did for me!