ACCEPT ACCEPT ACCEPT

sometime ago in the life of this blog the LORD gave me three words ACCEPT, BALANCE and SIMPLIFY. These were three areas I needed to work on and I think I have made tons of progress in two of these, but not anywhere near enough when it comes to ACCEPT.

In fact when I have tried to recall these 3 words I nearly always forget ACCEPT. I remember the other two fine. Why is that?

Because in the last 4 years of my life he has asked me to ACCEPT lots of huge life changing events. The last 2 years have been hardest.

To ACCEPT things are out of my hands, out of my control...sad, hurtful, betrayal, heart-breaking and soul destroying events. Why does he want me to just ACCEPT these things? Because he wants me to TRUST HIM COMPLETELY. TO TRUST THAT HE KNOWS BEST. TO TRUST THAT BREAKING MY HEART NOW WILL BENEFIT ME AND MY LOVED ONES FOR ETERNITY.

That seriously sux. I have this constant battlefield between my MIND and my SPIRIT. My spirit gets the LORD's plans, and knows that if I just ACCEPT then I can move forward into the kind of future that only the LORD can dream up.

But my MIND can't get past the heart-break. It refuses to let go of the last 4 years of my life. It keeps saying if you ACCEPT then you are running the risk of having your heart broken for good next time. You need to protect yourself.

I know Satan is having a field day with my thoughts. But it seems so logical. To not listen would be to act like a door mat, a stupid woman who never learns but goes back for more.

Yet the LORD has blessed me during this time. He made Romans 8:28 a reality for me over and over again - And we know that in ALL THINGS God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

ALL THINGS meaning good and bad.

Out of heartbreak and sadness he saved my husband and I am about to have a child. These are not small prayers he has answered. But 14 years and 5 years worth of praying. Miracles.

Yet I still battle with this area. I wonder how long it's going to take me to press through???

• I have to ACCEPT that when things are OUT OF CONTROL he is in CONTROL.
• I have to ACCEPT that when there is MISTRUST he is always TRUSTWORTHY.
• I have to ACCEPT that when there is UNFAITHFULNESS he is always FAITHFUL.
• I have to ACCEPT that when I am being sacrificed he is making me more like his son, my Saviour, and not a door mat.

These are not easy things for me to accept because I am a strong independent woman. The last 4 years has stolen so much from me personally. Yet the LORD's message remains the same ACCEPT.