what is it about my Saviour

i love the LORD because he 1st loved me.
Isaiah 61 is true of me. He gave me beauty for ashes.
a garment of praise for a spirit of heaviness.
Songs of praise healed my spirit.
I was broken but he put the pieces back together and made me new again.
Restored my innocence, removed my sins as far as the east is from the west.
I was heading for destruction but no one knew
Only the LORD saw me in the dark, my tears he wiped away.
He is my Saviour. A simple truth about the Son of God.

I love the LORD because he could have ruled the world but he chose to serve.
He chose to spend 30 something years in obscurity as a carpenter's son.
He did not seek fame or try to stand out of the crowd.
He chose obedience over power.
He chose to submit, to love unconditionally.

I love the LORD because he was so different from this world. He had a way of turning everything upside down with a simple act. He spoke to a Samaritan woman when he shouldn't have. He wept when he saw his friends suffering even tho he knew he would fill them with joy within moments. He paid attention to the unlovables of his world. And made fishermen famous. Obedience, submission, servanthood, and unconditional love. He didn't conform even to his world's image of him. He simply went about his business and completed his purpose.

Even as he was about to go through undescribable suffering, he spent his last moments of freedom praying for us. His disciples and all other believers. He prayed for me and you. His love the world had never seen before. He wasn't just an innocent man dying unjustly. He was the Son of God choosing to die for us. For me.

some crazy thoughts

i sometimes think the only things that make sense in my life are my children.

freedom...galatians 5:1...how free am I? how burdened am i by a yoke of slavery (or the message version...never let anyone put a harness of slavery on me)....i don't feel free....need more simplifying and balance. The LORD died to set me free...am i honouring him by making the most of this freedom or did he die for me in vain??

if the LORD was living my life what would he get rid of? What would he prioritise? Do i need to be more like him or more like who the LORD made me to be? Becos I'm not like my Saviour. But there are certain characteristics about him that I adore and would love to call them my own too.

mother's diary

Reading thru the discipline book recommended by Faith. It's seriously encouraged me because I didn't have much luck putting into practice current baby techniques of letting them cry or old techniques of discipine. So a lot of the practices recommended in the book we have done just thru building relationships with our two little ones and adapting to their needs and what's right for us.

I think some people look at me and think I'm overly sensitive to my children but they're just as important to me as any adult so I do listen to them and answer them when they call me. And i'm flexible with their routines.

Caleb is super shy with people he doesn't know well and in a family of loud laughing social butterflies it's a bit hard for some to understand. But myles and i were both shy when we were little so he has a double dose of it! We don't try to force him to say hello, etc we just try to encourage him and interact with him.

I'm going to keep a diary of my little ones. How they're developing as little people...how our relationship grows...the many changes.

Today's note:

my son says 'no' a lot. I'm told at this age 'no' is normal. But he also has a habit of turning any suggestions into the negative....if he's said 'no' to something then even things he normally likes doing will get the negative response...eg: if I say do you want to go outside he will say, 'no don't want to go outside'. do you want a hug 'no, don't want a hug'....etc.

He is very strong willed. And refuses to do anything someone else tells him, if he gets in his 'negative' mood. What does this mean for him? I find myself asking the LORD why does he need to stand up for himself so? why does he need to be so strong willed? I wonder what he will have to face in the future, that he might need this in his personality?

I have learnt not to tell him to stop doing something instead I give him something different to do. Eg: instead of saying move back from the tv, which he immediately says 'no' to, I pull his couch out and say 'caleb come and sit on your couch' or if i'm sitting on the big couch I will say 'come sit with mummy' and he does. Without any problems.

caleb

just had a ditzy moment. If you read this faith sorry, for making a mess of your comments! forgot that you have to approve comments on your blog 1st.

I had a hard moment today. With caleb and discipline again. He had the worse trantrum. And screamed at me when i took something off him that he was ripping up. In the end he said sorry and we hugged etc. But scared me into doing something about it.

So just ordered the book Faith recommended , actually there were a few. But thought I would start with the discipline one and see from there. Might get a whole library of them :)

just a little romance

a little romance can go a long way...an act of kindness, thoughtfulness, of love...can make a girl feel like someone else out there gets who she is and wants to be a part of her life.

It's an interruption in her day to say 'i know you and I love you so much I just had to show you.'

It shows that person knows what makes your heart melt, what makes you smile and laugh, what brings out the best in you. What makes you shine!

We love to feel loved. I'm trying to capture that feeling...but I can't quite express it well enough. It's like standing in a crowded room and everyone else is out of focus except you. That's what a little romance can do.

It's what the LORD does when he interrupts your day just to say that even though he has so many sheep he still sees you and he knows who you are...his daughter, his son. And he knows exactly what you need and when you need it.

A little of that magic is all a girl needs in her busy hectic day. It's enough to make her want to wash her man's dirty feet with love :)