I thank the LORD that even in the midst of sorrow there is joy. I can still praise him because I know he will work this out for all our good. He knows our hearts desires and I trust him to do what's best for all of us. No weapon formed against us shall prosper.
Myles has 3 siblings - a twin brother, an older brother and sister. They don't believe in the LORD. I wonder how the LORD will use this difficult time in their lives to bring them closer to him?
At the moment, as I wait on the LORD, I am listening for him to reveal his heart, his will, for Myles' Mum, his siblings, us as a family. He said we could test and approve his will if we don't conform to the patterns of this world but instead be transformed by the renewing of our minds (Rom 12:2).
We are going to New Zealand next week to spend some time with his Mum. My aim is to bring her some joy and laughter in the midst of this. For her to enjoy Caleb and have her loved ones around her.
I wonder what is the greatest miracle to heal the sick or save a soul? There are a few souls in Myles' family that need saving. I pray that the LORD will send us as his hands, and fill us with his words and his heart for his lost sheep.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
only have the LORD
Found out tonight that Myles' Mum has an aggressive cancer. She has 1-6 mths to live. The biopsy results are not in yet, but it is unoperable and there is nothing they can do apart from ease the pain or at most palliative chemo.
So the doctors can do nothing and we only have the LORD to help her.
It's a funny thing to say that we ONLY have the LORD. It's like saying we ONLY have the Creator of life, we ONLY have the Saviour of the world who raises the dead, walks on water. We ONLY have the Maker of heaven and earth. We ONLY have the Healer of broken hearts who gives beauty for ashes and sets prisoners free. We ONLY have the God of the impossible, my LORD and Saviour.
It's times like this I'm so grateful I only have the LORD. Who better to have on our side, when the world says it's hopeless. Only God can heal my Mother-in-Law and perform a miracle.
I'm still waiting on the LORD. He can rescue my Mother-in-Law. He gave me my miracle son and I'm pregnant again. He healed my broken heart a long time ago and set me free. He transformed my husband into a new creation and within one night removed a lifetime of disbelief.
Yes, I am thankful that we only have the LORD. For there is none like him.
So the doctors can do nothing and we only have the LORD to help her.
It's a funny thing to say that we ONLY have the LORD. It's like saying we ONLY have the Creator of life, we ONLY have the Saviour of the world who raises the dead, walks on water. We ONLY have the Maker of heaven and earth. We ONLY have the Healer of broken hearts who gives beauty for ashes and sets prisoners free. We ONLY have the God of the impossible, my LORD and Saviour.
It's times like this I'm so grateful I only have the LORD. Who better to have on our side, when the world says it's hopeless. Only God can heal my Mother-in-Law and perform a miracle.
I'm still waiting on the LORD. He can rescue my Mother-in-Law. He gave me my miracle son and I'm pregnant again. He healed my broken heart a long time ago and set me free. He transformed my husband into a new creation and within one night removed a lifetime of disbelief.
Yes, I am thankful that we only have the LORD. For there is none like him.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
dad
I woke up this morning remembering my Dad's smiling face. He had one of those sunshine smiles that he always greeted his loved ones with. You always knew he was happy to see you. I miss that smile.
And he had this chuckle when he laughed and when you tickled him he screamed like a girl :)
My Dad, glad he's with the LORD, but if I had a choice I would wish him here with us!
And he had this chuckle when he laughed and when you tickled him he screamed like a girl :)
My Dad, glad he's with the LORD, but if I had a choice I would wish him here with us!
Friday, February 15, 2008
waiting on God
My mother-in-law is having her biopsy on Monday, so will find out then if they can do anything to help her. I'm praying for good news.
My Dad died of kidney cancer 4 years ago. He lived for 8 mths after they 1st diagnosed him. It had spread throughout his body. My Mum had cancer in the uterus, but they caught it in time. Praise the LORD. She has annual check ups now. This means 3 out of 4 of our parents have had cancer.
We must have a big bullseye on our backs for Satan to target our family so much. But thankfully, we have the LORD on our side, and he has worked overtime in our lives to strengthen our faith. And in Myles' case to save him - he became a Christian in 2004.
That's what I'm most grateful for - Myles has a relationship with the LORD. He knows he can ask the LORD for anything - give the LORD his heart's desires. And he can lean on the LORD instead of himself.
I have lost a lot of loved ones in the last few years. Each time I prayed for healing except when I found out too late. Not one of them was healed. Their sicknesses took their lives. And now my mother-in-law. Does this stop me from praying for healing? Does this make me doubt that the LORD heals the sick? That he is the same today as when his son walked this earth and performed miracles? NO!!!!
Some people might think this is stupid of me. But my job is to believe and trust the LORD is who he says he is. I choose to believe and not doubt. I choose to ask and receive.
I have no idea all the things, circumstances, people the LORD takes into account in working out what's best for every one of those prayers. He sees the bigger picture so I trust him to decide what's best for me and my loved ones. I am also blessed to know that they all believed and were saved. So I will see them again.
I have seen the LORD heal broken hearts, including my own, and he saved my ovary when the Doctors told me it was unsaveable and I would not have children. I have a beautiful son and another child on the way. Cancer is not bigger than my LORD.
I believe that all things are possible with our LORD. I believe he is our Healer. I believe in miracles. The outcome is in his hands but he wants to know what we expect from him, what we desire from him. Not for his sake do we declare our faith in him. But for our own. To fill us with hope and encourage us to never give up. He said we have not, because we ask not and when we ask we ask with the wrong motives.
I know my motives are right because my Lord and Saviour had the same motives when he healed the sick. He was filled with compassion and love. I love my mother-in-law and I know my son would be blessed to have her be a part of his life. We all would.
So yes, I am praying for good news. And I wait on the LORD to answer only as he can.
My Dad died of kidney cancer 4 years ago. He lived for 8 mths after they 1st diagnosed him. It had spread throughout his body. My Mum had cancer in the uterus, but they caught it in time. Praise the LORD. She has annual check ups now. This means 3 out of 4 of our parents have had cancer.
We must have a big bullseye on our backs for Satan to target our family so much. But thankfully, we have the LORD on our side, and he has worked overtime in our lives to strengthen our faith. And in Myles' case to save him - he became a Christian in 2004.
That's what I'm most grateful for - Myles has a relationship with the LORD. He knows he can ask the LORD for anything - give the LORD his heart's desires. And he can lean on the LORD instead of himself.
I have lost a lot of loved ones in the last few years. Each time I prayed for healing except when I found out too late. Not one of them was healed. Their sicknesses took their lives. And now my mother-in-law. Does this stop me from praying for healing? Does this make me doubt that the LORD heals the sick? That he is the same today as when his son walked this earth and performed miracles? NO!!!!
Some people might think this is stupid of me. But my job is to believe and trust the LORD is who he says he is. I choose to believe and not doubt. I choose to ask and receive.
I have no idea all the things, circumstances, people the LORD takes into account in working out what's best for every one of those prayers. He sees the bigger picture so I trust him to decide what's best for me and my loved ones. I am also blessed to know that they all believed and were saved. So I will see them again.
I have seen the LORD heal broken hearts, including my own, and he saved my ovary when the Doctors told me it was unsaveable and I would not have children. I have a beautiful son and another child on the way. Cancer is not bigger than my LORD.
I believe that all things are possible with our LORD. I believe he is our Healer. I believe in miracles. The outcome is in his hands but he wants to know what we expect from him, what we desire from him. Not for his sake do we declare our faith in him. But for our own. To fill us with hope and encourage us to never give up. He said we have not, because we ask not and when we ask we ask with the wrong motives.
I know my motives are right because my Lord and Saviour had the same motives when he healed the sick. He was filled with compassion and love. I love my mother-in-law and I know my son would be blessed to have her be a part of his life. We all would.
So yes, I am praying for good news. And I wait on the LORD to answer only as he can.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
sad news
Very sad today. Myles found out last night that his Mum has bowel cancer and it's spread to her liver. She is a lovely woman, very supportive and encouraging. I always say I have the best Mother-in-law. We are waiting for her to have a biopsy and see from there.
Whenever there is a trial or a test, I wonder what Satan's trying to do apart from the obvious and I wonder what God is doing to rescue us? There are lots of people involved so only they will truly know what God is doing in them during this time. For me, the timing is impeccable.
Myles and I took a first step yesterday in regards to our marriage and then this happens. It's like Satan is trying to keep us from doing something. With Myles' Mum sick, now is not the time to take this step. I could still pursue it but I know Myles needs me to love and support him right now. Yet I know this may accomplish the same goal. So what's the LORD doing?
I think the LORD will use this time to strengthen my love for Myles, focus on others, to remind me how blessed I am, and of what really matters.
One day you are smiling over flowers from your little son and the next day you are crying over your Mother-in-law's pain. I can remember a time when sickness didn't touch my life, when the greatest drama was family arguments. Now, there is sickness every year.
I was only just saying to the LORD last week that I am so over mourning, that I wanted to celebrate life and remember my loved ones who are all gone as Joel Osteen does. That they went to be with the LORD. And they are happiest where they are now.
If I am over mourning, then I have one final step to take, to let go of the past and set my eyes on the future he has for us, me and my loved ones.
It's ironic that my verse for this week is Jer 29:11. How can I see my mother-in-law's cancer as something positive? Because I believe the LORD will be with us, will meet our needs, and use this time to bring us all closer together. I know and believe the LORD doesn't want to harm us, but to help us.
Satan wants the opposite, he wants us to give up, to blame the LORD, to take our eyes off God and drown in the mayhem he wants to create. He wants to steal, kill and destroy us. He knows times like this either unite us or divide us. I choose to let it unite us no matter how hard it gets.
Whenever there is a trial or a test, I wonder what Satan's trying to do apart from the obvious and I wonder what God is doing to rescue us? There are lots of people involved so only they will truly know what God is doing in them during this time. For me, the timing is impeccable.
Myles and I took a first step yesterday in regards to our marriage and then this happens. It's like Satan is trying to keep us from doing something. With Myles' Mum sick, now is not the time to take this step. I could still pursue it but I know Myles needs me to love and support him right now. Yet I know this may accomplish the same goal. So what's the LORD doing?
I think the LORD will use this time to strengthen my love for Myles, focus on others, to remind me how blessed I am, and of what really matters.
One day you are smiling over flowers from your little son and the next day you are crying over your Mother-in-law's pain. I can remember a time when sickness didn't touch my life, when the greatest drama was family arguments. Now, there is sickness every year.
I was only just saying to the LORD last week that I am so over mourning, that I wanted to celebrate life and remember my loved ones who are all gone as Joel Osteen does. That they went to be with the LORD. And they are happiest where they are now.
If I am over mourning, then I have one final step to take, to let go of the past and set my eyes on the future he has for us, me and my loved ones.
It's ironic that my verse for this week is Jer 29:11. How can I see my mother-in-law's cancer as something positive? Because I believe the LORD will be with us, will meet our needs, and use this time to bring us all closer together. I know and believe the LORD doesn't want to harm us, but to help us.
Satan wants the opposite, he wants us to give up, to blame the LORD, to take our eyes off God and drown in the mayhem he wants to create. He wants to steal, kill and destroy us. He knows times like this either unite us or divide us. I choose to let it unite us no matter how hard it gets.
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