Help Me Lord

Well the last couple of weeks have been have been pretty hard. There has been a lot of pain but through this time I know the Lord is with me and there is something I am meant to learn from this, I'm not to sure what it is yet.

Sometime I wish I could just crawl into this little hole where no one could find me just the Lord and there would be no memories to make you sad, just the Lord holding you tight untill you were ready to climb out and face the world again.

Lord I pray that you will help me through this, you no the desires of my heart Lord but in the end its your will that will be done.

I surrender it all to you Lord I have tried to fix it on my own and it only makes things worse, so I give it all to you Lord.

unlovable people

Recently i have heard a fair bit of talk about people who are hard to love - family, friends, lovers, work colleagues, church people, strangers. Why the heck does God put these people in our lives. Being a christian would be easy without these people!

I am learning that He wants me to love - and make a difference. NOT to talk about how unlovely they are. To show them the grace, love and forgiveness that Jesus has shown me.

So whether it be my wife, my Dad, my boss, my twin, "mature" christians - i know I gotta stop thinking "why me" and just start loving. Who knows - it may be the difference in that person's life that turns them to Jesus.

If I am going to "be salt" I gotta start being salty.

christmas

What is normal I ask? OK sorry - back on track. The bestest bits of my Christmas were

• spending time with my brother Duncan before seeing him off on his holiday on Christmas eve
• seeing Claire turn up at Charlie's on Christmas eve
• connecting with people at Church - getting to wish heaps of people a Merry Christmas
• spending time with Uncle Richard on Christmas day in hospital
• sharing Tylah's excitement as he played with his new PSP - he did not have the words to explain his excitement!
• chatting with Kaki on Christmas night

Christmas has never been a normal set pattern for me...but I think I am seeing a pattern I would like to start following. I know the day after I will not even remember my own presents - but the memories I will keep are the ones I spent with people.

christmas

I had a very weird christmas. A big part of our christmas was missing with May and Bubba in NZ. I missed them heaps. There was no May to say hurry up it's nearly christmas come to the lounge...or to say come and eat....she's the one who keeps our Christmas day 'programme' moving along.

Tylah, my nephew fell asleep because there was no Bubba to play with, and he was feeling sick.

We were missing Christmas carols even tho we burned some and so did zee...we didn't even do our traditional poppers and confeitti on time...

Even church on Christmas day felt all disjointed. Apart from Lipo and Maggie singing I didn't really enjoy it. It felt weird too - even Frank wasn't his usual polished self.

Oh well, we all made the best of it, including my brother, Charlie, who played the good host.

It was my LORD's birthday, and he still lives...that's what really matters.

40days task

Hey fanau

task for next Tues: E - EXPERIENCE...we kind of started drinking the champagne before we settled our tasks...so if everyone is ok with below then we will do this Tues.

1: reread pages 246-248, in case we have forgotten what EXPERIENCE was all about.

2: Do questions on pg 246 relating to FAMILY, EDUCATIONAL, VOCATIONAL, SPIRITUAL, MINISTRY, PAINFUL experiences.

3: Also, what are the main lessons you have learned for EACH of these areas: FAMILY, EDUCATIONAL, VOCATIONAL, SPIRITUAL, MINISTRY, PAINFUL experiences.

I think this will be heaps. Enjoy!