when you're going through a storm, around a mountain several times....anything that leaves you feeling like the LORD has abandoned you. It's very easy to wonder if the LORD's plans are actually making any progress.
It's very easy to forget the LORD's plans. Especially if you spend months or years struggling and getting further away from the vision the LORD gave you.
What happened to that dream?? What happened to that vision and passion to be full on for the LORD? Something about preparing for eternity??
It was easy when life was easy, but when it became hard and the LORD took away your security blankets and your safe lives...did you still trust him?
That's the LORD. You are his child that he lifted up on his shoulders and showed you wonders far away that you wouldn't be able to see standing on the ground. But instead of throwing you into the air so you could grasp these wonders immediately - he puts you back on the ground. And you are still a child and the only way you can grasp those wonders is to grow up. This can take years or months depending on how fast you learn life's lessons.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Friday, October 13, 2006
plans to prosper PART II
What does this mean for me? I forget that whatever I'm going through is nothing compared to the future the LORD has planned. I forget the vision the LORD once showed me. I forget his passion is so much greater than mine. I get bogged down in the moment and I can't see the bigger picture because my emotions get the better of me.
The more I get bogged down the further I move away from the future he plans for me. The longer it takes for me to get out of the desert.
Do I want the plans he has for me? Do I want to live a life beyond any of my dreams, be so passionate that I can stand by my LORD for all of eternity? Do I want to know what the LORD meant when he said I could be ONE with my man?
OR do I want to settle for whatever Satan has planned and live a mediocre life? Something safe so Satan doesn't have to worry about me doing anything amazing. It will still be enjoyable and I wont have to worry about learning anything if I don't want to.
If only the LORD would leave it at that, abandon me instead of reminding me of his vision for my future every now and then so I don't give up. HIS REAL PURPOSE IS TO KICK ME IN THE BUTT AND TELL ME IF I WANT THAT FUTURE THEN I HAVE TO PRESS THROUGH AND BE OBEDIENT. NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO SHRINK BACK OR SET UP CAMP - NOW IS THE TIME TO RUN LIKE CRAZY AND SHAKE OFF ALL SATANS TRAPS.
In real life it looks something like this:
Satan tells me lies by putting thoughts in my head - eg: live today don't worry about tomorrow, enjoy yourself now.....................why try it's too hard nothing is going to change.....................God will sacrifice you because he doesn't care about you.............you're not good enough, strong enough, worthy enough, so you might as well just give up.........................what about you? you deserve to enjoy your life?
The more I get bogged down the further I move away from the future he plans for me. The longer it takes for me to get out of the desert.
Do I want the plans he has for me? Do I want to live a life beyond any of my dreams, be so passionate that I can stand by my LORD for all of eternity? Do I want to know what the LORD meant when he said I could be ONE with my man?
OR do I want to settle for whatever Satan has planned and live a mediocre life? Something safe so Satan doesn't have to worry about me doing anything amazing. It will still be enjoyable and I wont have to worry about learning anything if I don't want to.
If only the LORD would leave it at that, abandon me instead of reminding me of his vision for my future every now and then so I don't give up. HIS REAL PURPOSE IS TO KICK ME IN THE BUTT AND TELL ME IF I WANT THAT FUTURE THEN I HAVE TO PRESS THROUGH AND BE OBEDIENT. NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO SHRINK BACK OR SET UP CAMP - NOW IS THE TIME TO RUN LIKE CRAZY AND SHAKE OFF ALL SATANS TRAPS.
In real life it looks something like this:
Satan tells me lies by putting thoughts in my head - eg: live today don't worry about tomorrow, enjoy yourself now.....................why try it's too hard nothing is going to change.....................God will sacrifice you because he doesn't care about you.............you're not good enough, strong enough, worthy enough, so you might as well just give up.........................what about you? you deserve to enjoy your life?
BUT THE LORD TELLS ME:
Remember your dream? Remember who I am? Remember who you are?
You are my daughter and I formed you in your mother's womb.
I saved you, gave you a new beginning, and I will always love you.
My plans are to prosper you not to harm you, to give you a hope and a future.
That future is eternal.
Choose me again and again. Choose life.
Satan wants to steal, kill and destroy you. I want to give you life in abundance, to the full.
I am in complete control, trust me.
I am able to do immeasurably more than all you can ask or imagine, according to my power that is at work within you.
I am your refuge in a storm. Stop working against me!
Draw closer to me and I will draw close to you. Seek me with all your heart and you will find me.
The battle belongs to me - don't do it alone.
Choose me again and again. Choose life.
Satan wants to steal, kill and destroy you. I want to give you life in abundance, to the full.
I am in complete control, trust me.
I am able to do immeasurably more than all you can ask or imagine, according to my power that is at work within you.
I am your refuge in a storm. Stop working against me!
Draw closer to me and I will draw close to you. Seek me with all your heart and you will find me.
The battle belongs to me - don't do it alone.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
some things change some remain the same
it's been a year since we started this blog. A year of our lives' thoughts and reflections. A year of our relationship with the LORD and others. So much has changed including ourselves.
Myles is in NZ visiting his Dad. It's weird when I travel on planes I don't think twice about it but my man travels on a plane and I suddenly get all paranoid about terrorist attacks. I was relieved to hear he made it safely. (Thanks, LORD).
We've been together 16 years and we still miss each other terribly when we're apart. I feel like a part of me is missing and I smile and laugh but on the inside I'm counting down the days until he returns.
Our marriage in the last few years has been a rocky ride but this is still true for me - he is my greatest gift from the LORD.
Myles is in NZ visiting his Dad. It's weird when I travel on planes I don't think twice about it but my man travels on a plane and I suddenly get all paranoid about terrorist attacks. I was relieved to hear he made it safely. (Thanks, LORD).
We've been together 16 years and we still miss each other terribly when we're apart. I feel like a part of me is missing and I smile and laugh but on the inside I'm counting down the days until he returns.
Our marriage in the last few years has been a rocky ride but this is still true for me - he is my greatest gift from the LORD.
Monday, October 09, 2006
marathon last few days
We had a family wedding on Saturday. My Mum arrived from NZ on Wednesday. Thursday we went shopping for 5 hrs with with my sister-in-law, niece and nephew. Very full on. Friday shopping for about 4 hours with my Mum then a family dinner. Sat wedding ceremony then kids and family came over to swim in the pool, packed them off, went to wedding reception. I didn't sit down or rest that day.
Sunday I woke up completely exhausted and could not drag myself out of bed! Something tells me I completely over did it! I was tired Friday nite, but Sat nite the wedding was so much fun I must have been running on adrenalin. Honestly, I forget I'm almost 32 weeks preggy.
I went from doing nothing to doing too much!! I felt like I was recovering from a hangover yesterday and I didn't have a drop!
So all I did Sunday was sleep, sit, put my feet up, had a bath. I woke up today feeling better, but still very tired...like I could sleep the day away. So after this it's back to bed with a book. Might go out for coffee later with a cousin, but haven't planned it yet because I'm wondering if I will have the energy!
Sunday I woke up completely exhausted and could not drag myself out of bed! Something tells me I completely over did it! I was tired Friday nite, but Sat nite the wedding was so much fun I must have been running on adrenalin. Honestly, I forget I'm almost 32 weeks preggy.
I went from doing nothing to doing too much!! I felt like I was recovering from a hangover yesterday and I didn't have a drop!
So all I did Sunday was sleep, sit, put my feet up, had a bath. I woke up today feeling better, but still very tired...like I could sleep the day away. So after this it's back to bed with a book. Might go out for coffee later with a cousin, but haven't planned it yet because I'm wondering if I will have the energy!
Hard to Come Back
I have not been to church for so long and now I finding it hard to come back. Its not that I don't believe in God, I just keep finding excuses to not come back. But I think its time to stop being lazy and get back to God. I'm noticing I'm not as strong a person as I used to be and that is because I'm relying more on this world then I am on the Lord. I'm starting to feel that emptyness again. Its time to start doing instead of just talking about it.
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