There are times when i seriously don't like myself. I'm snappy and lose the plot over things like messy kitchens and bathrooms. Certain people rub me up the wrong way and i find fault everywhere.
These are things that concern me because they add unnecessarily to my daily chores and with a little effort by everyone, my life is made easier. But is it worth losing my joy over?
So today i hung out with an old girlfriend of mine. Always afterwards I feel a lot lighter and happier. Why is it some people lift you up and others pull you down? Does that mean i should surround myself with the 1st lot and banish the 2nd lot to a small corner in my life...only to be dealt with when necessary. Or am i just being to fussy??
IT'S A NEW YEAR! Life does not have to be an accumulation of wasted moments. I am 40 years old. I am in charge of my own life. If I don't like it then something needs to change otherwise I'm doomed to live wasted moments.
I would much rather celebrate life and have real life changing moments. Hanging out with my kids is awesome and fun but being responsible for everything in my home is not. I'm not the only adult here.
Last week I went to bed at midnight or soon after. Even by 11pm one night. But my little ones have been waking up a lot due to the heat and riley is teething. So I have had lots of broken sleep. I'm not good with broken sleep. Yet still i'm expected to do everything else in the house.
Something has to change. It's a new year, a great time to start a fresh and shake off the old ways!
2 comments:
Tali: I have felt the way you are feeling! Not so much now, but definitely in my oldest daughters middle elmentary years (grades 3-6) when her baby sister was a toddler and preschooler. My husband did not do much around the house at all. finally I just prayed and asked God to give me the right words without sounding like a B--ch and I spoke with Dave about things. Now he helps out much more and of course the girls are older now so they can do chores too. I told my husband that i am NOT a single mom and that I expect help with certain tasks. Now he does stuff. Maybe you could just talk with your hubby? see what happens? we are finally getting some warmer temps today...all week has been in the single digits here in early a.m.! I am so tired of winter!
wow thanks Faith! I am going to try your single mother line - love that! Yes, I'm definitely sounding like a b--ch.
my man does stuff when he feels like it. He doesn't think like me at all...he cld work around with the house in a mess and it wouldn't bother him in the least. He would just push it aside if it was in his way.
Was funny but today while i was doing dishes it popped into my head, that one day my kids will do these, and how cool wld that be! Made me smile, something to look forward to.
Sydney just had a heat wave, temps as high as 44 C degrees....111 F I think. But that's nothing compared to Victoria (another state) which has had the worse bush fires in their history, lots of lives lost. It's devastated small towns with nothing left standing and a few survivors.
On a happier note, riley is crawling and pulling herself up to standing. four teeth so far!
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