we fly out tomorrow - to see myles' mum in new zealand. I am praying for lots of discernment because Myles' family is different from mine. So I want to be mindful of her independence but at the same time I want her to know it's ok to be emotional about all of this. That she doesn't have to put on a brave face for us.

I am hoping Caleb brings her lots of joy and laughter. That seeing her grandson will help her to choose life...to make the most of whatever time the LORD has given her. I am praying that it will be years and not just months.

Of course, I'm worrying about Myles too. He's so use to being strong and in control that I don't want to be a burden on him in any way. I don't want him to have to look after me and everyone else. It's a time he can be selfish and take care of whoever and whatever he thinks best. I'm praying the LORD will shower him with love and guidance as he steps into unknown territory for him and his family.

I guess this is like stepping into the dark for the first time holding the LORD's hand. He has no idea what's out there or what to expect. I pray he holds on tightly to the LORD and doesn't feel like he has to cope on his own.

I'm also wondering how caleb will cope with staying somewhere that's not his home, how will he sleep, will he be himself or too scared to relax...lots of unknowns.

ok, overwhelmed now...need to pray.

LORD
I'm so leaning on you right now. Your word is flooding me....we can do all things through you who strengthen us, if we draw near to you then you will draw near to us...cast all our cares on to you for you care for us...We need you LORD. We are not strong and we can't do this without you. Thoughts of losing my Dad are flooding me, and now I face another parent who is going through the same circumstances.

I know that you are with us. That greater are you who live in us then he who lives in this world. That you are our refuge. That no one can snatch us from your hands.

Fill us with your discernment LORD. The way you saw into the heart of whoever you talked to, so you knew what they needed. Help us to do this with myles' family. Fill us with your Spirit LORD, so our words are your words, so we can comfort those that need comfort and laugh with those who need laughter.

Help us to be their refuge in this storm. Help us to be a blessing to them.

And please help Myles and I to communicate with each other. Help me to help him LORD. To be his right hand in this time of need, to be Jesus to him - no pressure just lots of love.

Thank you LORD. You already know my heart's desire LORD. And I magnify your name which is above all names, Lord Jesus. You said we overcome by our testimony and your blood sarificed on that cross for us. My testimony is this - you are the Son of God, my Lord and Saviour and that all things are possible with you, that you are the same today as yesterday. That you heal the sick, bind up the broken-hearted, and set captives free. That you intercede on our behalf and turn our prayers into something beautiful. Thank you Lord. I ask all this in your mighty name. amene.