new challenge

I set myself that challenge last night to put aside my own troubles and take up the LORD's cause every day. To ask myself: What can I do today for the LORD's cause? Not for myself, but for him?

So today I failed miserably! I spent time with my man, and kept asking myself those questions, meanwhile not behaving very loving or joyful at all towards him. I thought to myself...is this it? Is this the LORD's cause, treating my man with love and respect even when he's annoying me? Surely not, oh well, it was early on in the day so something else must pop up.

Then speaking to my mum, who also seemed determined to annoy me...all the while asking the LORD what can I do today for your cause, not for myself but for you??

Now it's the end of the day, and it has dawned on me that I had plenty of opportunities to do something for the LORD and not for myself, just with my loved ones. I didn't feel loved and so in turn behaved unlovingly. Instead of putting my own feelings aside and being loving for the LORD's sake I chose to wallow in self-pity! As Joyce would say 'what about me, what about me, what about me'.

Have to laugh...good thing I have all year to work at this...try again tomorrow :)