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I'm pregnant, found out yesterday. Praise the LORD for his mercy over us and his grace which completely covers us. Part of me was expecting not to be preggy because I have not been very successful at working on my health. I left it in the LORD's hands. But when i had to ring the nurse to hear my results I couldn't do it. Suddenly, I was scared, that two embryos had been sacrificed unsuccessfully. So Myles rang.

So all going well, I am due in June. Caleb will have a sibling or two (if Myles gets his wish for twins).

I have 3 embryos left in storage. So I will have to do this again. If it's part of the LORD's plan I could have at least 3 children under 5. Someone said to me, isn't this enough, but if the LORD gave me so many embryos then I have to give each one of them a chance at life. Even if it means being preggy 3 years in a row :-)

If the LORD has planned life for any of my embryos them it's my responsibility to give them that chance to grow from 8 cells to a baby, like our Caleb.

It makes me in awe of our God. How can those little cells grow into a child with all that genetic make up as decided by him. He makes us to have strengths and weaknesses and watches us grow...and learn what these are over a life time. How amazing.

Over our lifetimes, the LORD gives each of opportunities to meet with him, to choose to believe or not...but he never takes that choice away. He created us to know independence and yet one day we who believe realise that we are dependent on him...Our Creator...and then we give him opportunities to mould us.

To be that something beautiful worthy of keeping for all eternity.