church

in response to my beautiful man's post yesterday about church...i can do 3 of the things on his list but there is one that I have always struggled with... his 3rd reason for why he goes to church. So the LORD can give me a message or so the LORD can speak to me.

What if 90% of the time I don't receive any messages from church that apply to my every day life, that teach me, challenge me...then I have to question am I planted in the right church?

I have prayed about it. I know how important it is to keep a good attitude when it's not about you. So I use the other resources in my life to learn and grow - my bible, teaching tapes, other church services, conferences, Joyce Meyer, christian books, and our 40 days sessions.

Our church is over a year old now...and I can probably count on one hand the number of sermons that I could apply to my life, that changed me and have helped me in my life struggles.

I have lasted this long at church because of our 40 days group. Our group was challenging and helped me to grow at a crucial time in my marriage and personal relationships.

But i know church is relevant for Myles and if this is where the LORD wants me to be then I will stay. If this is where Myles is learning than I will just have to keep using all the other resources the LORD has given me so I can keep growing.

But then I also know what it is to belong to a church that motivated me, and equiped for the week ahead 90% of the time. The LORD was so alive to me and 100% relevant to me and my every day life. I have been spoilt.

I am hoping this is just a season that will pass...and I just have to persevere.