love again

i think i have written on this subject before and here it is again!

why is it so easy for the LORD to love us who are so undeserving...we have all lied, we all deceive, most of us are selfish, self-centred, full of ego, self-righteous. Yet the LORD loves us.

Why then is it so hard for us to love????

I think it's because the LORD can put us first. He truly wants what's best for us. He could turn us into robots, and take away our free will so we would always love and obey, but he never has.

But we make love about us. when we describe why we love someone it generally is about us, because of the way they make us feel, and the things they do for us.

I hope one day I will learn to love without thinking 'what about me' because i know that day still hasn't arrived. Sure I might have a moment like that, but it's drowned by all the million other moments of 'what about me'.

I wonder when I have a child will i be able to love him/her like the LORD. Probably, until they develop a will of their own!