sleepless in sydney

went to COLOUR CONFERENCE Thurs-Sat...it had less pizzaz but just as much kick. Have tons on my brain, tons to process and write and pray about...can't sleep, but not ready to dig yet.

This much I know, the LORD is stripping another layer off the "taliloa" image and replacing it with his truth. I know myself very well, but always the LORD proves how much more he knows me. It's like he never accepts anything even if it's good...he strips it down to the simplest truth.

He gives you gifts, skills, talent, etc, but then he never wants you to rely on these things...because the moment you do...he strips it back down. Our strengths, our weaknesses...are never things he wants us to rely on. He will use them for our good but the moment he thinks these are no longer good...it doesn't matter what it is...he won't hesitate to strip it away.

A caterpillar transforms into a butterfly once, but the LORD keeps transforming us all our lives. I use to think we were being transformed into mature christians...but i'm starting to realise that the LORD's idea of MATURITY is just as different from this world as everything else. I think he's simplifying everything.

At the start of my life I was a child dependant on my parents. At the end of my life I will be a child again dependant on my heavenly Father. That's the LORD's idea of maturity. We start our lives with nothing then we fill it with so much that we need to spend the rest of our lives removing it all.

I was happy with nothing when I took my first breath and I will be happy with nothing when I take my last. I will spend the rest of my life learning what this revelation means. I can't take anything with me to heaven...not my good name, not my deeds, not my gifts or skills or calling, not the blessings, not my sins, my strong body or weak body.

I just take my spirit. From what I have learnt this year...

I think I have overpacked.