may is going to be a very emotional month for me. My brother's birthday. My brother died 10 days after his birthday. My anniversary with my man. Realised something about myself. I will never be able to look at 16 may, when my brother died, as anything but sad. I thought maybe one day because my sister and mum want to make it a special day. But my Dad died 7 yrs ago and I still hate that day.
But his birthday. I will always celebrate that day. Next year is his 40th so will throw him a big bash :)
This year our anniversary, 20th years as a couple, was overshadowed by the focus on Rob. 1st birthday since he died, etc. But I also realised that I want to make our anniversary something worth remembering and celebrating.
Don't know how all these mixed emotions will balance out...but next year i will do better.
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