i am missing my brother so much this week. it's because his birthday is around the corner. i asked the LORD last nite to help me to live without him. I know he's already doing this, but sometimes i miss him so much i just can't bare the next moment. I just have to wait for it to pass me by...that's when mindless tv is great.
Having a gathering this weekend which he would have loved. Has a few of his favourite people but it's also the kind of gathering he likes...good food, good company, just chilling at someone's home for the afternoon.
When i do new things I keep thinking he's missing out. It sometimes makes me not want to do them. But I hope the LORD lets him share these moments with us. And he's with the LORD...having amazing moments of his own. I have to see it as me making the most of this life, making it more precious, treasuring and not wasting every moment because he would want nothing but good things to come from him leaving us. He would want his niece and nephew to have the best lives. Not a mum missing her brother so much that she can't even enjoy her own life.
I miss him but i am coping better with my feelings then months ago. It's ok to miss him.
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