i should be asleep but this use to be a time when i would have some of my most 'awake' moments with the LORD. So here i am again and tomorrow i am going to be such a zombie.
lots of thoughts...what happens when you're so controlled and responsible in life that it becomes very tempting to do something you normally wouldn't. A small example would be as a Mum I really should go to bed because tomorrow I have 2 little ones to look after. Instead I am here. That's kind of irresponsible. But there are worse things I could be doing. How tempting is that? An extreme would be to live a double life.
Today I am thankful for so many things big and small...my daughter who wakes up looking for me...my son who says 'come on mummy' when he wants me to put him to bed. Watching them do the funniest things as children free to be as loud and as crazy as they want to be or as quiet and shy as they want to be.
I am thankful for my home. That i can decorate it any way I want and make it into a welcoming personal space for my family to grow. I live a privileged life and with that privilege comes responsibility that one day my LORD will hold me accountable for.
I love Christmas because i love buying gifts for people. I am having a gathering of about 24 loved ones on Christmas eve. I want it to be...a time to enjoy each others company, relax after a busy year, and laugh, for everyone to feel comfortable and at home, for the children to have a great time, and lastly a time to remember my Lord and Saviour who died so I might live and love. And who lives so i might live and love.
i know why it's not tempting for me to lose control or lead a double life. Because i know in this life I don't have to be perfect. I don't have that expectation of myself. If anything I know the value of imperfection. And when i'm being 'imperfect' it's ok because i know the LORD doesn't change. He is the same today as he was yesterday. He is my rock and even tho I might be shaky at times, I have not built my house on the sand. No one can snatch me from his hand.
2 comments:
Beautiful. This made my day!
I love how you wrote that no one can snatch you from His Hand!!
God bless you this Christmas season, dear Tali....I wish we could meet.....
Give your precious little ones a big hug from Faith in NYS!
hi faith
you saying that makes my day and it's only 10:45am! Will definitely give my little ones hugs from you today. Praise the Lord for connecting us! From sunny Sydney to a snowy NYS our God reigns! Will visit you just in case you don't read this. Have a wonderful joy filled christmas with your loved ones!
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