answered prayer

I wrote the post on prayer yesterday in the early hours of the morning because I was leaving something in the LORD's hands that I couldn't fix and had no answers for. It has been on my mind for a while now but more so in the last week because it was looking impossible for me to change...no solution. Yesterday, the LORD showed me that he is working on it.

I would give details but it's about an impossible relationship. I needed to change my mindset and he has started that. He's changing my heart because I have told him that I don't know how and I need him to do it.

It always amazes me how something seemingly impossible is nothing to the LORD. He can get rid of the problem so easily and you are left thinking 'what was the big deal, how easy was that to solve'. He's the King of conflict resolution.

I was only saying yesterday to this person that we will just keep doing what we can and leave the rest in the LORD's hands. He is so good! I know it's only the beginning but he has so filled me with hope that I can't wait to see the rest of his handiwork.

prayer

when i pray I pray for the possible but also for the impossible. Because I believe what the word says about our LORD...all things are possible with him. He is the same yesterday as he is today.

I pray to the God who created heaven and earth, gave life to us, flooded the earth, raises the dead,parted the dead sea, came to this world as a vulnerable little baby in the hands of a young girl, who walked on water, calmed the seas, fed 5,000, overcame death...2,000 years ago and much much more!

I believe in the unseen. I believe that love conquers all. I believe that when God forgives a sinner like me, i'm made new and my sins are forgotten. I believe Jesus celebrated his birthday with me.

So I pray to the God of the impossible...my Creator and Heavenly Father. I ask him to do what i cannot do. And then i wait with great expectation for his answer...my God reigns.

merry christmas

to anyone who pops by this page:

Merry Christmas. May the LORD bless you right where you are! May he draw you closer to him in the coming new year. I hope the Lord's birthday is filled with love, laughter, and praise.

I have had my traditional christmas eve all nighter with my family and am about to close my eyes for a few hours before celebrating another day. Christmas for me is 48 hours of family, food, and giving.

It's so the LORD's character that on his birthday we get presents! He is the no.1 giver and his generosity knows no bounds.

How do i thank you Lord for saving me, renewing me, restoring me? Not by remembering you only once a year, but by choosing to live my every day life with you, and at this time of year finding all the energy i have within me to wish you a happy birthday in as many ways as possible.

thankful

i should be asleep but this use to be a time when i would have some of my most 'awake' moments with the LORD. So here i am again and tomorrow i am going to be such a zombie.

lots of thoughts...what happens when you're so controlled and responsible in life that it becomes very tempting to do something you normally wouldn't. A small example would be as a Mum I really should go to bed because tomorrow I have 2 little ones to look after. Instead I am here. That's kind of irresponsible. But there are worse things I could be doing. How tempting is that? An extreme would be to live a double life.

Today I am thankful for so many things big and small...my daughter who wakes up looking for me...my son who says 'come on mummy' when he wants me to put him to bed. Watching them do the funniest things as children free to be as loud and as crazy as they want to be or as quiet and shy as they want to be.

I am thankful for my home. That i can decorate it any way I want and make it into a welcoming personal space for my family to grow. I live a privileged life and with that privilege comes responsibility that one day my LORD will hold me accountable for.

I love Christmas because i love buying gifts for people. I am having a gathering of about 24 loved ones on Christmas eve. I want it to be...a time to enjoy each others company, relax after a busy year, and laugh, for everyone to feel comfortable and at home, for the children to have a great time, and lastly a time to remember my Lord and Saviour who died so I might live and love. And who lives so i might live and love.

i know why it's not tempting for me to lose control or lead a double life. Because i know in this life I don't have to be perfect. I don't have that expectation of myself. If anything I know the value of imperfection. And when i'm being 'imperfect' it's ok because i know the LORD doesn't change. He is the same today as he was yesterday. He is my rock and even tho I might be shaky at times, I have not built my house on the sand. No one can snatch me from his hand.

caleb's birthday

caleb's birthday this saturday. we are taking him to the pool with 4 of his cousins and having a picnic afterwards. it's funny because this week he has watched some of his programmes and they have had birthday cake. So he's been asking me for a birthday cake nearly every day. I keep saying wait till saturday, but of course he doesn't understand :)

So looking forward to making the day special for him. Just having his cousins in the water with him will make his day. He will be so excited!

christmas is almost here! because this is my 1st real christmas with full decorations...it is taking me a while to get the house ready. I'm 80% there. And I have been watering my christmas tree so it will at least survive the holidays!

It's going to be an interesting gathering on christmas eve because myles' sister, brother and his mum's partner will be here with all my tribe. Hopefully everyone will enjoy themselves. Plus 1st christmas in our new place.

At least i've done most of my christmas shopping.

Riley's burn is healing nicely, i hope it doesn't scar (plse Lord!). Her and caleb are interacting so much more. She is so long, she's going to be a 'giant' that's one of caleb's fav words at the moment. Everything big is a giant :) She is communicating a lot more, squeals, reaching out to people, giggling, etc. Her 1st teeth are coming out too!

Caleb is desperate to communicate with me. He strings words together but wants to say more so he gets very animated. He recognises letters from the alphabet now to our amazement. We draw with him and do the alphabet and there is a kids programme which focuses on spelling words called 'word world' on the disney channel. It's great! He counts to 10 when he wants to. That still amazes me!! They learn so fast at this age. One week you're drawing letters with him and he doesn't recognise anything and the next week he's saying 'K' or you're counting steps with him and the next he's counting by himself! God is good!

my daughter

I burnt riley last thursday. I had her in her carrier in front of me. And was putting chicken in the oven and the side of her leg caught the oven door. She let out a little scream and I screamed and ran around like a mad woman to check her feet, etc. Couldn't see anything but still put her feet under water. Then sat down to give her milk and saw it was actually on the side of leg and it had blistered up. Meanwhile I hadnt stopped crying, and put her leg under water for 10mins.

Riley was fine, apart from her 1st scream and being a bit disturbed about her leg being under cold water. Caleb couldn't understand what was going on. But kept saying 'alright Mummy?'

I can't believe how stupid I was! I thought she was safe and secure in her carrier and at the time I was saying to caleb 'keep away, oven burn' and not thinking of riley's dangling legs. So stupid. We took her to emergency and they said she should be fine. Took her to our family doctor and she said the same thing. so it's bandaged up.

I had this false sense of security with riley in her carrier, thinking she's safe and happily going about cooking dinner. Never again. Never again. My whole family have been supportive with comments like 'accidents happen' but it's no comfort to me. I should have known better.

I will never do that again.