change in the air

i'm turning 40 this year. So it seems like a good time to assess who i am and what needs to change. I have lots of qualities which are less than admirable and I have to make an effort to change. So what do I need to change...well this is just what I can think of now:

my hubby gave me my 1st one:

I need to be less bossy or loosen up more!
I live with 3 men - hubby, son and brother. I feel like I play mother to all 3 not just little Caleb. I know that I'm alot more flexible then i use to be about keeping the house tidy. And I let mess slide otherwise I will go crazy telling the boys to tidy up after themselves. eg: my man has a habit of eating and leaving his plate on the bench...sometimes he will remember to pack it but other times he will leave it there over night. Or he will open a muesli bar and instead of putting the wrapper in the rubbish he will leave it on the bench. So I have to stop telling him what to do all the time and let him be messy and do things his way instead of telling him my way all the time.

I need to be more assertive and brave
I'm not brave about doing new things and I'm terrible with ringing up things or people. I need to get my licence and take control of my life. I procrastinate too much.

I need to build relationships with those closest to me and make time for my loved ones
I spend the majority of time with my man and caleb. But it might be a case of too much time so we don't value each other as much.

I need to get back to reading more!
I use to be an avid reader but these days I go through moments when I will read 3 books in a month and then read nothing for months on end!

I need to pay more attention to what's happening in the real world
I don't pay attention to any current affairs. It's terrible but it just seems to be the same old same old. It's not a good trait for a christian. I need to know what's happening in the world. So watching the news and reading my man's news website which has a broad range of current affairs.

I need to take better care of myself
I don't do enough pampering of myself and girlie things. I need to include this into my time. Plus my health and fitness.

Well that's it for now. Some of these things are small and easily rectified but the biggest thing for me is I need to loosen up. I'm such an overanalyser that I pass judgement on everything instead of just enjoying it. As I have gotten older it has become worse. I need to be more like my husband in some respect. No wonder the LORD placed him in my life. It's that horrid word again that I struggle with ACCEPT.

I use to be a lot more carefree and loved doing spur of the moment things. But now time is taken up by the routine of life and doing extra things seem to be too draining. With two kids I hope I find more energy and get back to being more inventive with my time.

That's a start.