mum

my prayer for today is LORD please desensitize me. My Mum and I can't survive one long visit - she's been here since November, without a blow up. Now every comment she makes just rubs me up the wrong way. I wish I was exaggerating but it takes a lot to make me angry, and two days ago I was very angry.

I don't want to spend this post complaining about my Mum, because I love her to bits and I know she loves me. But if I'm going to survive the next few weeks I need the LORD's help. I need to let her comments and opinions just go over my head. To try and make these next few weeks fun and enjoyable for her.

Plan to take her sightseeing tomorrow - places she hasn't been to, plus a little shopping at one of her favourite shops. Then Tues dinner at my cousin's place. Wednesday we're packing a picnic and going with all the grandchildren to this beautiful beach in the National Park. She's already starting to plan what food we're going to make for it :)

But I spend all day and all night with my Mum so I need better coping strategies. Stuff like, time out somehow - nap with Caleb twice a day...go out with Myles and Caleb one night just to get time alone.

I have a hospital appointment on Thursday which I will probably take Mum to, though not in to the actual appointment because the opinions will overflow, and I will be asking for trouble :)

Today was a very full day, so I had time out from Mum. Went to a 1st birthday today, my cousin's son. That was all day. It was so hot that while we were at the party another cousin brought over my 2 nieces for a swim at my place. We came back and an hour later another cousin and her son came for a swim, plus my aunty. They stayed till after 9pm.

So LORD, please help me to be patient with my Mum, to not take her comments and opinions personally, and to not let my anger lead me to sin, if it rears it's ugly head again. Help me to put her in perspective LORD, please. To remember all the good she is trying to do, and to talk to her with respect. To remember your word to me that time when she upset me so much over the phone that i cried out to you. And in my ranting and raving you whispered that one thought to me : she needs more love than you. It melted my anger and reminded me how she's alone in this world, with no Dad to talk to, who was so patient with her, loved her and spoiled her.

Help me to remember that LORD so I will treat her with compassion and acceptance. To remember how over our lives she has prayed for us, her children, and tried to do her best. Most importantly that I she brought me up knowing you and believing in you.

My Mum is 60 this year. She deserves my respect, she has 20 years of life experience on me. help me LORD to have a good attitude with her. To forgive her easily.

Forgive me for losing my temper and forgetting that I belong to you. I need you LORD. In Jesus' name I pray.