I have been house hunting for a couple of months now. Not sure if i've mentioned it already. We rent and we moved into this place 18mths ago. We lived in a unit but with a baby coming we decided to find a house.
My brother who lives with us was going to find his own place. But he changed his mind - I think he enjoys Caleb's company too much :-)
Usually i have a list of requirements and i pray about it. The LORD has always met these and given me even more than i expected. When we found this place Myles and I both liked it immediately even with it's flaws. But it wasn't in our price range. I prayed about it and knew if the LORD wanted us to have this place it would go down in price. So I kept an eye on it and it did.
It has been great - swimming pool for all the kids during summer, Christmas here with all the family. But we need more bedrooms as my brother is staying on and Myles' sister is moving over from New Zealand.
So now my list has lots of things and over the 2 mths i have changed my mind about what's important. And I thought perhaps the LORD wants me to stay in a place which is less than perfect for once. I told him that's fine just show me which place.
So today found a house which was in Brighton, lots of chill out areas, close to cafes and supermarket, but 2 bedrooms were small. Lots of character - I loved it. But Myles wasn't sold on it. I just put it down to the LORD's answer of a less then perfect home.
I was so sure it would be a great place for us to live. So I convinced Myles and we were going to apply tomorrow. But normally when we find a place Myles and I both like it. So that stuck with me. I said to the LORD if we apply and you don't want us to live there then please don't let us get it.
The LORD has given me all of what i asked for in this house and more. But I have changed my mind again. It's too much to take a place that I like and Myles isn't sure about. We both need to like it. It's not only another requirement but the most important one.
When I first started searching a pool was a must. Then it became near a station. Myles coming home earlier was a must. It must have 4 bedrooms because Myles sister needs her own room. But then I started thinking 3 bedrooms would be enough.
It seems I really don't know what I want or what is a priority. So how is the LORD suppose to answer my prayer if I keep changing my mind?? It makes me thankful that I know who my LORD is. Thankful for his patience at my indecisiveness. Thankful that he knows me better than I know myself. And he knows my man, our lives, Caleb, our yet to be born child...all these things he takes into account when he answers my prayer.
He knows what's best for all of us because he sees the whole picture. So I have decided to amend my prayer even further by saying I don't know what I want, please help me decide what's important, what we need. And most importantly let Myles and I both know and have peace about it.
My search begins again.
2 comments:
I loved reading this Tali because it shows how honest you are! Oh boy, do I ever remember house hunting. It always seemed like we just could not ever agree on one. We finally prayed about it (we had a newborn at the time, 1993) and the Lord led us to build a 3 bedroom colonial in the exact school district we wanted to raise children in at the price we could afford. Now of course I want something a little bigger but you what? God want me to stay right here for now, and so....I have learned to be content. (but gee...it would be SO nice to have a guest bedroom and a master bath!...sigh...). He never promised to give us what we want but He sure does supplies all our needs doesn't He? Happy House Hunting and praying!! :)
I'm going to give it a break and concentrate on my 'amended' prayer for now :)
I've moved every couple of years ever since coming to australia back in 1996...the changing needs of my family.
I'm just grateful I enjoy the whole process...it's like travelling for me - going somewhere new :)
To have me find my perfect home and turn it down was probably what God meant by letting me stay in a place less than perfect for once...I might have to do without a guest room too :)
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